Monday, May 23, 2011
As some of you know, I have kept my hair long nearly my entire life. Whether this was just because I liked it that way, or for some deeper psychological reason is beyond me. But for the sake of some unknown force, today, I cut it nearly all off. I don't have my wings anymore, and the back is super short. This scared me at first, because last time I cut my hair short like this, it looked awful. But I felt this odd force tugging at me, saying that I need to cut my hair, that it was time for a change.
This is where the leaves come in.
Regarding my last post, that was written during a major period of low. Man, that was bad.
So, maybe this force was telling me I needed to change something. To shed the leaves that were haunting me, and to grow new ones. So, I shed my hair, symbolically shedding the leaves of the demons of the past.
Insanity is defined as doing the same thing over and over again, expecting a different result. My conclusion: I was reaching insanity.
Though the hair might not be a huge thing, it could have just been the small domino that needed to fall to send the walls of my problems crashing down. One small pebble can cause a rockslide, but this isn't the negative rockslide. This is the rockslide that brings down the walls of my demons. I can do this <3
Thank you , God , for getting me through everything.
I would be nothing without my friends either, so thank you all. I love you.